Why when I have so much, am I so unfulfilled?
I have a gorgeous husband and a beautiful step-daughter, both who I love dearly. I have a caring and loving family.
I live in a stunning place, with such fresh air and glorious scenery.
I am so grateful to be back in Ireland – Catholic Ireland – where one breathes the Faith in the atmosphere. And where the prayers and piety, although dwindling, still lift the spirit.
My home is situated just across the road from a lovely chapel, where I can visit my Sweet Jesus at anytime I wish.
And I can see the outside wall of the Sanctuary, behind which lies our Lord in His Blessed Sacrament from my bedroom window.
I have friendly and helpful neighbours and our Priest is genuinely kind, reverent and special.
So, why when I have so much, am I so unfulfilled?
The chapel just across the road lies mainly empty, for there are only two Masses a week. And these Masses do not fill me with the wonder that IS the Mass.
They do not touch me deep inside, for they are, in many ways, abstract and alien to my soul.
Whilst our Priest is very reverent and prayerful and the congregation is welcoming pious and lovely, the abstract nature of these Masses leaves me wanting.
For my soul yearns for the traditional Latin Mass.
The traditional Latin Mass, where one’s whole being is filled with wonder.
The traditional Latin Mass, where the Latin language is like balm and the prayers encircle the body, filling the mind with honour, reverence and praise of God.
The traditional Latin Mass, where the words chosen bring us to humbleness before our Lord, reminding us of how much we need Him to heal our souls, our minds, our bodies.
The traditional Latin Mass, where the materials and vestments fill our senses with passion.
And at High Mass, the incense and music send our spirits soaring to the Heavenly Abode.
I am very fortunate in so many ways, yet I hunger.
I hunger so much for that which is still so often denied us – the traditional Latin Mass – Catholic spiritual practice that takes us, mind, body and spirit, directly to God, healing our souls.
Deep, rich healing – is this not what the Holy Mass is about?
As Our Lord appears upon our altars, should He not deserve the very best we can give Him?
This is not a community meal. This is His Holy Sacrifice for us, for our salvation. Does not this most sublime of mysteries, of gifts, deserve the very best?
It deserves Liturgy that is worthy of such a gift – Liturgy that heals the soul, the mind, the body.
Liturgy that by its very nature brings us directly to our God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen.